that ungodly sound

Have you ever experienced a profound sensation, a reverberating sound that resonates from the depths of your ears to the very core of your soul? It's the kind of sound that permeates every fiber of your being, lingering persistently without relenting. It etches its presence in your mind, leaving an enduring imprint that shapes your thoughts and emotions. This extraordinary encounter has become an integral part of my existence, and I must confess, it is a bittersweet remembrance that I carry within. It holds a tapestry of emotions, intertwining joy and sorrow, awe and reflection, as if each thread weaves together a rich fabric of experiences. It is a testament to the depths of human perception and the profound impact that resonant echoes can have on our lives.

In a conversation with my ex tonight, I stumbled upon a TikTok video where my ex-girlfriend discussed our past. And to my devastation, I heard myself portrayed as a complete monster. There was a video featuring me, and what I heard was undoubtedly my voice, but it felt entirely unfamiliar. I sounded demonic, consumed by hatred. I have become the very monster I shielded my children from! I must rectify this. I am compelled to ensure that such a thing never happens to anyone else I encounter. Hear me out when I say this, it may not be today or tomorrow, but I can assure you that he will never harm another person. I promise he will not break another heart, inflict another bruise, or cause another tear to be shed. 

The moment has arrived to quell the inner beast, employing any means essential for its suppression. In what manner shall I proceed? Should I subject it to suffering, or should I expeditiously terminate its malevolent deeds? Nevertheless, my unequivocal purpose remains to shield my ex-wife, my children, my ex-girlfriend, and all those who might encounter him in the days ahead. The course of action required was already apparent to me. I foresaw the potential repercussions, yet I disregarded the cautionary signs. I was blindsided. However, I am now fully cognizant. The culmination is within sight, illuminating the path forward.